Reflecting...

I haven't had the chance to reflect on our hospital visit since we've been home. But now Isabella Faye is sleeping so I will take some time.

Seeing her so sick hurt me in a way I've never experienced. I prayed and asked God to take her pain and sickness and give it to me.

Soon after we were admitted to the hospital, He gave me sweet peace that IF was in good hands and that I could trust the staff that would be helping us to make her better. I trusted Him to trust them and He put in our path a stream of kind, smart professionals. From the sweet lady in radiology who said IF was the most beatiful baby she'd ever seen, to the nurses, aides, respitory therapists and our amazing pediatrician, IF was treated like she was the only patient in the hospital! I am so thankful for God's protection around us.

There was something else that I thought about, that I couldn't shake. It has consumed much of my thoughts since...I knew IF would get better, I mean there's always a chance you'll find something more, but I knew that she'd be okay. Even with that knowledge, seeing her poked and prodded and so sick, was gut-wrentching. How more hard then, for a parent of a child with cancer or another illness that the outcome is unknown. How does a parent of a child with a serious illness survive the days worrying about the nights? How do they not just scream and cry with thier child during a procedure? How does thier faith remain so strong? I have added to my prayers a prayer for all parents dealing with the serious illness of thier child. I poor out my heart to God for these brave folks and ask Him to give them perfect peace and supernatural strength.

While IF was in the hospital, we received a card from a Mom, whose son battled Lukemia. We received many cards and goodies but this one stopped me in my tracks. I had to sit down. This brave, strong Christian woman had taken the time to write to us, becuase she knew what we were going through. Our situation so little compared to hers, but the heart of a mother knew what another felt. I am honored to have been prayed for by this brave lady.

Please pray with me for all parents who's children are seriously ill.