Everyday with Isabella Faye: February 2010

Saturday, February 27, 2010

BFFs

The other night we were playing at Aunt K's house. I was catching up on some of my favorite blogs when I heard my favorite sound of two kiddos giggling like crazy. I looked up to see this:

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Today marked one day longer that Isabella Faye had been home than she wasn't. We donned the day Home Longer Day and celebrated with a yummy lunch at our favorite local restaurant after church and a new movie for sweet girl.

It was a profoundly healing day for me. I have dealt with much bitterness since Isabella Faye came home. I have been so angry that we missed so much of her early life. I have been jealous of those whose adoption went more quickly and seemingly more easily. I have complained of her growing up so fast when I missed so much of her being little. There has never been a time when I have taken for granted that she is even home at all. With all the changes in Guatemala toward the end of the adoption, there were many times when we wondered. I know it is a miracle of our Heavenly Father that her adoption was completed. But, still, in my humanness-I long for those months we missed.

Yesterday at church as I worshiped, God brought to my mind this thought: I carried you through fifteen months of sorrow, to fifteen months of absolute joy!

In a terribly low time in the adoption my best friend, the famous Aunt K, who had survived an anguishing foster care adoption, told me: I've always thought the harder the fight, the deeper the love.

How right she was. I can't imagine loving this girl any more.